I started my self-discovery quest roughly five years ago. At the time, I believed I needed to identify myself, have clarity, and make the proper decision. Now, though? These days, it seems like everything falls apart the farther I go. Even if the future is uncertain, there are days when I feel empowered and proud because I am thankful that I have allowed myself to be in this position. There are other days when I feel totally lost—how long will I search? How often will I ask myself the same question again: Who am I really?

And social media comes next. Everything appears to be extremely obvious. Others appear to have everything planned out, their lives organized, and their trajectories clear. They create, travel, and smile because they have discovered their mission. And me? I feel like my life isn’t complete. The contradiction is that I adore it. I am incredibly appreciative of what I have; I genuinely adore where I am, and I treasure my ordinary times. I don’t feel “grown-up” or like I’ve made it anywhere, though. And do I have to? Sometimes I’m not sure.

The thing that worries me the most is how my once-strong convictions have begun to erode while new ones haven’t fully developed. I used to believe that wisdom came easily with age and that adults knew everything. I now see, however, that this was merely a delusion. The people I used to regard as experts aren’t always smarter or more perceptive; some are just obstinately holding onto antiquated ideas, some aren’t capable of critical thought, and some are simply too scared to own their ignorance.

So, is it really necessary for us to know every answer? Does a definitive meaning, a firm truth, or a clear path have to exist? Or perhaps true freedom is found when we give up searching for it.

Perhaps we just need to accept the process rather than trying to figure out who we are. must permit ourselves to evolve, to be ignorant, to make errors, and to never stop looking. “You don’t have to be consistent in your beliefs because they evolve with you,” was a phrase I once read. And I believe that this is a lesson that our age is learning: to find serenity in the unknown rather than feel the need to know.

How about you? Do you ever feel torn between letting go and trying to figure everything out? How do you get through the transitional period? Please share your ideas in the comments section. Let’s have a discussion.

This is my first article, by the way! I find it difficult to write in English because I’m not a native speaker, but I’m eager to express my opinions here. Thank you for reading if you have gotten this far! 💛